There are some setbacks when Magenta is around like not really being able to exercise or do anything constructive really. On the upside, I'm more accountable for the things I say when I actually have a real life person in my presence. I told her I was doing only liquids "to give my digestive system a break" which is sort of true but we all know I just want to do damage control on eating like a Glutton. I was doing the whole liquid thing for....well, the plan was to go 10 days but hours after she left on the 3rd day, I caved and ate all kinds of madness. The next day we drank and more bingery ensued in the form of quesadillas and cheese pizza. And before she even showed I was stuffed full of Lay's Light Potato Chips with Fat Free Sour Cream + Onion Dip...and other stuff. Really Flushed? REALLY!? You disgust me you evil little alter ego you!
Yesterday I had all liquids (including margaritas...Baja Bob's Margarita Mix <-Lurve.) and today so far has been only liquids though my tummy is grumbling. I may allow myself one solid meal today...I just don't know what and I have to choose carefully so that I don't end up eating the entire contents of the kitchen (which isn't much considering the past few weeks...). I just don't know. I hate food. Nothing really tastes good.
I disgust me.
Hello flushed my little love, has been a while, hasn't it? We seem to be in a similar place right now, you and I. Waking up hungry at 5am with a sloshy belly full of liquid love. Today I think I'm eating food, though preferably not much.
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you did well to last that long, I'm such a wimp :') stay strong lovely and good luck :) x.
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