Wednesday, June 30, 2010
Ya what of it?
Three days I did not do the Slim in 6 video but Monday I started up again. Tuesday I did it twice and today, once. I can feel and see the difference, my body is smoothing but not shrinking due to my eating (read: bingeing). Monday was great but Tuesday and today I caved. I ate way too much and I panicked and ended up with the wrong end in the toilet bowl.
Obviously, I feel bad about puking but not as badly as I do about bingeing. Puking, at least, gets rid of some calories. Not that I really want to get back in the habit. I'd much rather restrict.
So, you know where my head is at! That's right, the good ole Fukit mentality. I've even been drinking soda. 8 years without it and I'm back in the habit. Only this time I'm doing it without the calories. It's just too damn hot for coffee and I like the way the bubbles fill my stomach.
I don't know what to do about dieting and losing. I have so much knowledge on the subject, like I'm sure all you girls do; I'm constantly looking up information on dieting, health, nutrition, weight loss, the body.... but maybe I've gotten to the point where I know so much I don't know where to begin. Then there are my bodies needs and budgeting....the whole subject exhausts me lately. Or perhaps that is the lack of eloctrolytes in my system right now? Either way. I just want to lose weight and for my jeans to be comfortable again (preferably too big!). So if I do it by stupid and unhealthy means....fukit.