Sunday, July 4, 2010
Maybe One Day I'll Get Tired of Failing...
and actually succeed. (cue: *gasps*)
Momentary lapse of judgement on the puking front?
I mean, I've got to admit that spewing does have a calming effect on me. I can go so far as to say that it feels good. To lose weight, however, it has the opposite effect on me since I am a notorious binger. So not only do I not get enough of it out, what does stay down (albeit, quite stubbornly so) seems to take up resident on my hips and thighs
Oh yeah, and apparently it's a pretty disgusting habit.
Also, the puffy glands, red eyes, vomit breathe on top of my already chipmunky cheeks? Notsocute.
Ergo, I'm trying not puke anymore.
I'm just gonna try to restrict by buying all the low cal goodness that I can find. Plus vegetables. Plus Fruit. Because these are also (mostly) low cal goodness.
I'm also continuing my exercise regime with the Slim in 6 DVD's. I'm doing the second phase, today will be my third day on it. I'm hoping this time I will be able to do the entire thing without pausing. Twice. That's right, I paused TWICE. (Don't judge! At least I'm trying!) Again, I can see my body changing but due to the excessive binging it's not, I repeat NOT getting smaller. With that, I'd like to say that I am not nor have I ever claimed to be anorexic. I'm just an excessive (failing) dieter with bulimic shadow haunting me and a desire to be thin. The desire for food, however, is evidently winning as of late.
I downloaded some software off www.cnet.com so I can get the vids on my iPhone (they're borrowed). Also, Power 90>Fat Burning System might possibly be my next DVD endeavor, but I might just bite the bullet and check out J.Michaels 30 Day Shred.