Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming....

Keep GVing me! (Kinda sounds inappropriate, huh?) I need two classes AND income! There getting closer, hopefully closing in on me tomorrow and by next week in the bag! And the next week I will TAKE OVER THE WORLD!!! MUAHAHAHAAAAAA!!!

*ahem*

Let's just focus on this week, shall we? We shall. Still working the BBG. Tuesday was tough and 'spensive. Healthy eating on-the-go and my PoorGirlsBudget do not get along even at Trader Joe's. My meals were....creative. Thanks to the few healthy blogs I follow, I scrounged up were not necessarily delicious-but palatable meals that were healthy. I stayed under 900 cals but it was not all sunshine and champagne walks in the park. Getting an adequate amount of sleep really helps keep the appetite in check; and an adequate amount of sleep I did not have. And again today.

My body is trying to adjust to the new sleep schedule [for school], the lack of calories [that I get from NomVoms], not NomVomming, and the healthy diet [sans processed food, artificial sweetener, added salt or caffeine] which BBG considers a light detox/cleanse. I'm determined to get through this adjustment period unscathed. Well...aside from the Fuckery that is happening in the Mental Quarters.

I was so ready to NomVom today. What's stopping me, you ask? (Just go with it, you know the drill.) First of all a NomVom would throw off the accuracy to which I have been maintaining my BBG logs, my food scale is getting much love. I didn't want to screw up the detox-ish thing I've got going. It would mean starting from square one, and getting to square 5 took...well 5 days. I'm so over failing (OVERIT!). Also, Kazehana text me and kept me from stepping into The Mist (not fog, it wasn't bout to get kraz-e, just caloric).

2011 is about this new thing called "success" (don't worry, I had to look it up in the dictionary too). I want to and I will take steps towards my goals. For too long I have been either stagnant or backwards (I'm counting 1 step forward & 2 steps back as 'backwards'). I am determined for RESULTS! (Good ones.)

I was so upset this morning when I stepped on the scale and it read a pound more than yesterday. Since I've begun the BBG (on Saturday) I have not gone about 900 calories. I have also not gone, taking that into consideration along with my crazytown sodium intake of yesterday, I'm thinking I'm a pound heavier of shit and water. I'm sipping on tea and went today so hopefully the scale will not corroborate yesterdays nasty numbers today. (I like how I blame the scale and not me, my body, and my bullshit actions.)

Tomorrow is another day of all day class. Good Vibe me! <3

3 comments:

  1. Healthy is good! After your body starts to adjust to the new diet, the numbers will go down more steadily.

    On a side note; processed foods start to taste really nasty after you haven't had them for awhile. ;)

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  2. I SOOOO hate feeling backed up. It just makes me want to take a ton of laxies to get it all out! Good luck with the scale tomorrow! xoxo

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  3. I used to have a blog awhile ago but now I am on a journey to recovery, to better eating habits so I have created a new blog!! I chose to follow people who have distorted eating as I feel they understand what I am going through a lot better and wont judge me if I have an out of control day =) I would be great if we could support each other =)

    “Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”

    ♥ Bree

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