Oh wow could I
be anymore depressing? Why yes, yes I can but that's not the point, the point is I can make a choice
not to be. That last post was such a downer! I have to post again and not leave on such a negative note. There is most definitely a silver lining damnit! How am I going to move forward and progress if I keep giving attention to all the small negative happenings in my life?
Today is day 31 of not purging!! I survived the holidays (mostly, Thanksgiving
notsomuch) and when filled to the brim and presented with the opportunity to fail or proceed, I chose to proceed! I have stumble but I have not fallen. I will succeed. In everything that I set my mind to I will succeed.
I set the Wii bowling record, I can do anything.
Duh.
Things are going to go my way because I'm going to put my attentions and effort towards my goals.
A quick list: Steps to progress. I realize it's going to take time, as much as I'd like to wiggle my nose or rub a lamp and have things happen magically, that's just not gonna happen.
...for
awhile.
I walked under a ladder once.
I don't wanna talk about it.
Sigh.
Until then it's baby steps for me!
You'll get to where you want to be.
ReplyDeleteI really like your list ^_^
ReplyDeleteIf it's okay, I think I'm going to borrow it. hehe.
Good luck! I believe in you (Y)
I love your resolutions...
ReplyDeleteI have put off writing mine down for fear of failure.
...Ironic now that I think about it.
Yes! Baby steps. My new years resolutions are similar to yours.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had your perspective on the whole not purging thing though... I can't NOT purge if I binge. I just feel so gross and full and disgusting that if I DON'T purge I will.. I dunno... explode or something. It sounds silly but it feels so real at the time. I panic. I can't help it. My only hope is to not eat hardly anything and when I feel the need to want "Just ONE bagel with butter", I tell myself that I will just wind up binging and I KNOW I will... it keeps me grossed out enough to just have a carrot instead. Sometimes.
You have been doing such an amazing job with not purging. I admire you greatly. :)
ReplyDeleteHere's to you and your steady baby steps in 2010!
Stay lovely.