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I've not gone to the doctor thus me+diabetes is speculation based of symptom checkers googled.
It came about last week when Assured and I were talking on our walk, it was all very casual and, well, conversational. She asked if I (implying I should, of course) looked into having diabetes, she repeated the symptoms that I casually mentioned as annoyance (insatiable thirst, pee every 2 minutes and finally, showing her the 300 blisters on the back of my foot that seem like they've been there forever!) (annoying, right?!) and also added that our family has a history of it. I dismissed it immediately thinking, it probably just looks that way but, again, chalking it up to being a victim of circumstances.
Cause: Drinking a boat load of water.
Effect: Peeing a boat load.
Cause: Continue walking on already blistered feet.
Effect: Wounds that won't heal!
Duh! Right? Right! That's what I thought.
But the thought nagged at me. Waking up NUMEROUS times at night to go pee? Not normal. I began to scan my memory bank thus putting a little more weight on said symptom. Then fishing...who exactly has diabetes? Both my grandma and grandpa (apparently whichever can be okay through diet). AND THEN I went to google and check more annoyances off the list. Resulting in a Hate Letter to my body and an OCEAN OF TEARS! Cured with your lovely comments, a long walk (with a pitstop at a playground. How Super Freaking Fantastic are swings!) (And a little Jason Mraz "Lonely Girl" - ummm....yeah, I have a playlist called Sad Pants for these piteous occasions, it actually makes me feel better.) and weird breakdown(s).
My Aunt was telling me about going to the county for healthcare. She said that there will be a lot of waiting and a nominal fee depending of how much your income is, so this is what I had in mind. UNTIL my Sis (and Adodable Baby!) came over and was saying something about not qualifying if you have a 401k and $5,000 or more in the bank. Umm....County Funded Buh-Bye!
So there goes that.
That's not fair! It kind of is but then not. Isn't saving money and not blowing it all and living in debt what a Responsible, Smart Person does?! Oh but said person better not have health issues because there goes all said money on doctors bills. Should blew it at the mall. What is this? A society built on having your cake and eating it too? Stupid Fat society.
(I really don't know what I'm talking about but it makes sense to me! Temper Tantrum Alert!)
(Oh wait, the alerts are suppose to come before huh? Oh well.)
Let's face it, right now, I'm a hot mess of exponential [and emotional] proportions. Spiritually Lost, if you will. I keep trying to remind myself that that there is a rainbow after this ShitStorm of Tears that is my life right now. Things will get better, This Too Shall Pass and all that Silver Lining. (Also, I suspect my "Girls Week" may be around the corner. Boo!) It's just a matter of reminding myself of that and being strong. Because I am. (Damnit!)
It's weird, all this emotion. I'm used to bottling it all up but I think in this past year I've run out of room and it's starting to spill over. Hello, Multiple Emotional Breakdowns! Yikes.
On the bright side you all get to feel incredibly sane and put together after reading my posts!
You're welcome.
I'm soo glad you're feeling better. I have a playlist just like that for my sad times. it usually helps me too, or at least lets me get in a good cry. Is your period coming up? That might be the cause your emotional issues (usually is for me anyways). Hope you feel better, darling. Stay strong. There really is a silver lining.
ReplyDeleteSo what should I do if your post doesn't make me feel sane & put together... instead it does the opposite & I feel like I relate. Just keep telling yourself that it WILL get better, because lets face it; it can't get much worse!
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If you don't have diabetes, you may be "insulin resistant". I don't know too much about it.
ReplyDeleteI hate to encourage hypochondria, but when I started suspecting Celiacs, I turned out to be right. So if you get the chance, definately tell your doctor if you're worried about something. It's better to find out early and deal with it then let it get worse.
I can relate, though - I feel "Spiritually Lost" aaaaall the time.
(Interestingly, I have all three of your symptoms, too. I'm not sure about the blisters, because I walk all the time too, but the frequent thirst and peeing may actually mean you're low on salt. Or so I've heard.)
I feel pretty crazy in my head after reading that. YOU HORMONALLY MESSY BITCH!!! =D LOL. just kidding. im thirsty all the time and i pee all the time too in the middle of the night, but thats due to the lithium. =/ so im not sure what up with you, i wish i were a doctor, i would diagnose you. try www.healthline.com. enter a symptom and then it will give you a list to keep clicking more symptoms and then it will tell you a bunch of probable causes.. =) and it looks like you have diabetes =/ but hopefully you are just low on salt
ReplyDeleteI don't think anyone could make me feel sane, but you make me feel slightly less out there and all over the placeish. Hurray for unbottled feelings (in other words manic venting)! I really hope you don't have diabetes and will be thinking of you. I send you rainbows (ones that will just randomly appear during the shitstormoftears and won't bother with the whole waiting till things blow over)
ReplyDeleteI LOVE YOU!!!!
ReplyDeleteYOU ARE HYSTERICAL!!!
AND LOVING !!!!
AND SPECIAL!!!
OH AND DID I MENTION FUNNY AS SHIT!!!!!
(((((HUGS TO THE MILLIONTH POWER)))))))
LOVE, Tara formely known as Z
I'm with Yum on getting the diabetes checked out right away. It's likely nothing, but it's better to find things out early. Like ripping off the band aid.
ReplyDelete<3 We all have those especially crazy moments.
Eva
Fucks sake your healthcare system is so FUCKED.
ReplyDeleteI dont know what i would do if i were you. I would say get it checked dude but if you cant, then i guess maybe find out how non insulin dependent diabetics control their blood sugars and see if taking those steps is at all helpful? worth a shot? i dunno...
i think we all have a sad sack playlist somewhere for the times when you just wanna have a little self indulgent melodramatic movie scene cry. Its the only way!
(and its identifying with the multiple emotional breakdowns that makes us all feel so sane - they remind us we're not alone...)xx