Wednesday, September 2, 2009
going & g o n e
My mind is like both mush and LA rush hour traffic.
I feel like I have so much to blog about, I go about my day(s) mentally constructing my post only for it to either be forgotten or just burried underneath a pile of studying and trying to not be the worst person at communication ever. I've been learning so much at school that I can relate to my daily life it's unreal and I can't wait to blog about it but then...life happens.
Finally. Finally, I'm at my laptop ready to blog and my mind is mush. I cannot think of a single word to write.
My mind is going, going of things that I need to do. That I'd like to do. That I should do. That I'm forgetting to do. What time is it? When is my next class? Do I have my homework done for that class? Should I eat now or try and hold out until the end of class? Will I be to hungry and distracted with my hunger by then? What do I have to eat? Should I call TheElectrician now or after class? Texting be better? No, he called and left a message yesterday, I owe a phone call. Do I have food at home? Should I stop at the store before I go home? I need to check the sales first. What do I have to bring for lunch? What classes are tomorrow? Is the homework done? Should I do it tonight or tomorrow and see TheElectrician? Do I have time to do it between classes tomorrow? No. Maybe just quick coffee with TheElectrician...
It's an endless, relentless stream of thoughts and I'm not thinking beyond Thursday.
Last night when I got home I was exhausted. Do you know how wonderful it is to lay in the tub with the shower pouring over you and think of...n o t h i n g ? It's what dreams are made of. I didn't do homework. Just went to bed. C l e a n. I put everything aside until my alarm goes off in the morning.