though this is not a new realization, it's a constant feeling that has
been with me since before I even started this blog. This loneliness
and hunger. Not hunger for food, though I've tried to quiet it with
such, but an unknown hunger. Something is missing in me and I don't
On the outside things seem to be going fine, it's the struggle within
that hacks at me from within. I ache to know it's origin! TELL ME WHAT
YOU ARE! SO I CAN FIX YOU! FILL YOU! QUIET YOU!
All day today I've felt alone. Hell-I've been alone. I'm losing my
distractions...school, blogs, homework, twitter...nothing is keeping
me today. I don't want to do anything but I don't want to do nothing,
I need to do something but what? I'm so confused. I'm so unsettled.
A half hour before I can start heading to class. What to do? What to
do? Eat. That's what my mind is telling me. Eat-there's an apple in
the car. But the apple doesn't sound good. Nothing seems to sound good
Though there's nothing particular bad about today. Today is just not a
good day. It's just not.
There is a silver lining to this cloud-it's yesterday and it's tomorrow.