Gravy w/sausage Carnita tacos
- Fruit (cantalope & grapes)
- Blueberry Muffins (in lieu of cupcakes for dessert)
Saturday, July 25, 2009
The Stangest Feeling
I feel weak, like I'm floating. I barely feel my body even when I concentrate.
They're there...fingers...toes....but they don't feel real, like I'm a stranger in my own body.
Today was Not Good. But it could have been worse. My little cousins 10th birthday was today and we all went over to my aunts for a brunch buffet.
Off the bat 2 items crossed out since I'm a vegetarian. I don't really eat eggs unless it's just the eggwhites (I'm weird about dairy food). Temptations. Safe.
I distanced myself from the biscuits; and the Muffins were, "meh" *shrug*. I got to admit I almost caved when I was offered a Mimosa. Okay, I said yes! (LOVE-LOVE-LOVE Champagne!!!) But then I freaked about calories and changed my mind before anything was poured.
I had grabbed an apple and a grapefruit before I left (I never trust my aunts cooking, even when she goes for healthy. She doesn't think about olive oil, butter, dressings, fruit juices...) and I stuck to my safe foods. (Come to think of it she cooked the eggs in the same pan as she did the sausage. Saugage grease! NASSSTY!)
I walked out a Champ!
(Who the Champ?)
(Me the CHAMP!)
Pop open some Bubbley!!
-Oh wait. :-\
And then I got home. I broke 2 rules. I ate after 6pm and I ate more than 1200 calories. Sad Face. I almost binged. I almost purged. Instead I decided to just let it go. It was too much but it was still less than 1300 and nothing unhealthy and the thought of tomorrow being DaySeven as oppose to SquareOne...
Have I told you lately that I'm fat? (I am.)
And that I'm determined to not be? (I'm trying.)
And I'm trying to NOT be bulimic? (It's hard.)
And babbling in blog helps? (It does.)